I feel like the best thing I can do is to keep going with certain things, regardless of how challenging even basic daily activites have become.
I started to work on a bunch of writing projects that I'm really proud of, and I want to keep going with that. I may now be a homeless woman, but I also own a little netbook and canpick up wi-fi from a lot of places. My intuition tells me that my writing might be able to really take me somewhere, if I just let it flow.
So much, I have been guilty of holding it back- I might say something wrong....or inapropriate...offend someone I like....ailinate myself from yet another person I love....and become just a tiny bit more alone in a world where we all need love. I should noot be ashamed to admit that I want to be loved, respected, admired, cared about, and thought highly of. These things should nnot make me feel desolate and unworthy.
So what if I have very strong emotions about a lot of things. I manage to hold them back, hold them in, hold them down so much of the time..... but the fact that I feel makes me human. If these things didn't make me feel anything what would I be?
Most of my writing projects don't display these things going on in my life that I'm talking about here. I have a blog of music theory notes, another about Seattle, one about New Orleans, a website of resourses people may find useful.... and quite a bit more. Some of it is a way to put my reaserch and studies together in a format that I can look back on and also share with others. Some of it is an attempt to more towards more professional writing, but in a down to earth way. It is a thing that is evolving on it's own.
The difficult circumstances of the last few months have made it a little harder to keep up with it, but I actually feel really good about what I'm doing with some of that.
